Thursday, June 26, 2014

Friends

Have you ever had a friend who was your best friend in the whole world but then there were times when you weren't sure where you stood?

It suddenly is like you don't exist. Like you are a best friend when it's convenient and they have time for you, but otherwise they don't go out of their way.

I have one friend I've known forever and we are really close. She came to visit and made time to spend time with everyone but then expected me to make the time to go to her, although she went past me two or three times. So I missed out because my schedule didn't fit in because I had to work. Part of me is sad because I didn't get to see her but part of me is upset because she could have taken a few hours to stop by and say hi.  Oh well. 

And then I have a second friend who is busy with her world but finds me when she needs something. She can't pay her bills but she can go out to eat and take her child places, and do the recreation things. Her bills include paying me back when I helped her out, but I guess I should know better. She has people buying her things and she doesn't seem to hesitate going out... With her pretty friends. I feel negative about myself as it is, but the fact that she doesn't go hang out with me, instead she does things with her "pretty & sexy" friends... And then floods social media with photos... I feel like a piece of shit.

What the hell is wrong with me? I have such a low self-esteem... And my friends seem so pretty and popular that I feel like a reject.

Monday, June 23, 2014

Monday morning

I am laying here, listening to the fan... And my son snoring. I start work an hour later today so this schedule has me all messed up, not to mention my poor kitty cats. 

Tomorrow my son starts summer school and we will all be up early... At least for the next four weeks...

I am still tossing around ideas for writing my story. I have stuff written, I have thoughts in my head. I just need to put it together. 

Well, my kitty is here to cuddle for a half hour so... Until later my friends.

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Writing my story

I want to write my story. There is do much that people don't know... And I believed I can share myself to let those who have gone through the same, that they are not alone.

Sunday, June 15, 2014

List my mind

I know I do too much and spread myself too thin... But today made me see that clearly. 

Everything written said my son started work at 4.... I took him to work at 2.... 

I guess I need to stop stretching myself too thin.
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