Little things that drive me nuts!!!

If you are gonna chew gum... I do not want to hear it! Keep your mouth shut!

If you are gonna eat hard candy... I do not want to hear it! Keep your mouth shut!

If you are gonna hum... do it quietly because the tone drives me crazy.

If you are gonna do anything that annoys you... don't... it annoys me just as much!
 

Be Enough Me: Secretly Loving the Scars

Be Enough Me: Secretly Loving the Scars

I have scars... some are hidden, some are obvious... some are just barely there... and some are cut so deep they are constant reminders.

I'm sure we all have them. Some of us hide them better than others. Some of us can't get past the pain. Some of us even have learned to put them in the past.

Every day of my life... I look in the mirror and see the scars that have been left behind.


 

tired of being sad

I see so much around me and I am so tired of being sad. It seems like there is so happiness around me... I feel lost and alone. I'm so tired of feeling like this.

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Confrontation on eating

My son is my life. I love him to death, the only problem is that he has gained weight. I am afraid, that due to our family history, his weight might not go away as easy as it came.

When I try to talk to him about eating habits, he gets really frustrated and confrontational, almost like I am attacking him. I am trying to talk to him from a mom's point of view and the view of someone who has battled food.

He gets defensive and doesn't want to hear it, but he does.

I watch him, he is self-conscious, but also is just his quiet self. I don't want him to suffer like I did and I am completely at a loss on how to talk to him. I want him to be healthy and happy. I don't want him to go through what I have suffered with.

How do I confront him and talk to him without him getting so upset with me? I want him to understand that I am trying to help him.

Any suggestions for a mom in a corner... mentally...

Writing and notes

How do you keep track of random blog post ideas when you are in the middle of a full day of busy and something randomly pops in your head?

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Falling off the nut truck

An 80+ mom of 3 tends to find that her 40+ year old daughter might have inevitably fallen off the nut truck, from a rather high point when...

at 5:30am, in the kitchen, with all the lights on, said daughter is making a sandwich for lunch... and singing the Oscar Meyer Bologna theme song...

I guess she is just lucky I couldn't remember the words to the Oscar Meyer Weiner song......


 

anxiety

My birthday is coming up which then leads into the holiday season.
Every year, the holidays take me down. I don't seem to enjoy them. They seem to depress me. I can't find happiness. Holidays make me sad. I feel bad for my son because I get lost during these days. I get sad and grow distant. I don't look forward to them because my mood has shattered this way at least the past 5 years or so. Not sure what triggered it, but it happens! Last year we went out for my birthday and did special things, but it wasn't a big deal. I don't want people to fuss over me. It's not me.
Does anyone else suffer this way? Does anyone else feel like this?

cooking

If your child decides they want to go culinary, make sure you have a big kitchen and a dishwasher!

Just saying....

stress and distress

Part of me felt bad because I just dropped the class I was currently in, due to stress and anxiety.

But as I think about it, it is my body's way of putting it's foot down.

I have been taking classes for almost 11 straight months, 5 weeks each, back to back. I have also had my son gone a week, my mom with a stroke, my own self changing jobs, my mom having surgery, and more.

I think God is telling me to stop a moment....

Need to Admit it to myself

I have had so many things going on lately, that I just don't know which way my world is spinning.

I finally had to suck it up and tell my teacher that I cannot honestly apply myself to the class I am currently taking. I have been so out of it and now the anxiety I feel by being behind is killing me.

I understand that I will need to pay to retake this class, but the anxiety will push me further down the road of sickness if I don't face the reality. Honest, I didn't want to do it, but I had to make that decision.

I hate having to make these decisions, but this one was for my own sanity.