I'm sure you know me... you have seen me. I am a hard-working Woman. I am a growing Wine DIVA. I can land a roundhouse near your head. And I still know how to procastrinate on college homework. All with serious sarcasm and sassiness!!!
Have you ever had a friend who was your best friend in the whole world but then there were times when you weren't sure where you stood?
It suddenly is like you don't exist. Like you are a best friend when it's convenient and they have time for you, but otherwise they don't go out of their way.
I have one friend I've known forever and we are really close. She came to visit and made time to spend time with everyone but then expected me to make the time to go to her, although she went past me two or three times. So I missed out because my schedule didn't fit in because I had to work. Part of me is sad because I didn't get to see her but part of me is upset because she could have taken a few hours to stop by and say hi. Oh well.
And then I have a second friend who is busy with her world but finds me when she needs something. She can't pay her bills but she can go out to eat and take her child places, and do the recreation things. Her bills include paying me back when I helped her out, but I guess I should know better. She has people buying her things and she doesn't seem to hesitate going out... With her pretty friends. I feel negative about myself as it is, but the fact that she doesn't go hang out with me, instead she does things with her "pretty & sexy" friends... And then floods social media with photos... I feel like a piece of shit.
What the hell is wrong with me? I have such a low self-esteem... And my friends seem so pretty and popular that I feel like a reject.
My son has ADHD, anxiety, and slight obsessive disorder. He has patterns and routines.
Tonight, him and a friend went for a walk. It got dark and they got turned around, ending up in a area they had not planned on.
They got back on track and he called me to tell me they were on their way back. I could hear the anxiety in his voice and breathing.
His friend doesn't know about this.
When he got home, he was short and snippy. Then he started to tear up. Yep, I'm a mom, I hit the nail on the head when I asked him if the stress was from "getting lost". Yep, sure enough... And then the flood gates opened and he sobbed.
This is sometime I have learned to recognize and defuse but it's tough when his mood is sharp.
He is in a hot bath and relaxing. Time for bed... Its been a long day...
Early morning church, breakfast, movie, family dinner, went for a walk, went to his friend's, went for another walk, got turned around, and finally got home...
I started my MBA and finally got over my bronchitis, sinus infection, and war infection.
I made it through my first class with a B so I was thrilled.
My son is struggling with school, especially since he is a junior and they are looking at graduation.
I couldn't handle the roller coaster. I took 2 weeks off school so I can help him, support him, and get him through this.
I return to class next week. I have helped get him on track. And I hope we are good. He just needed to understand that I am always here to support him... He just has to ask... But he asks for help as much as I do (hmpf!!!)... So I know the signs!
Hopefully next week we will be riding a little smoother!!!!