stress and distress

Part of me felt bad because I just dropped the class I was currently in, due to stress and anxiety.

But as I think about it, it is my body's way of putting it's foot down.

I have been taking classes for almost 11 straight months, 5 weeks each, back to back. I have also had my son gone a week, my mom with a stroke, my own self changing jobs, my mom having surgery, and more.

I think God is telling me to stop a moment....

Sundays...

I know this might be random and I know that, while growing up, I was taught that the three things you don't discuss are: money, politics, and religion...

Okay, this isn't really talking ABOUT religion, but a random venting thought on my mind.

My son has been baptized and confirmed in our church. My dad never attended church except for my Christmas Pageants. My mom, on the other hand, made me go every Sunday. I had to literally be dead to stay home... but that is another topic.

Anyway, my son comes with me to church and doesn't mind it. I don't have to fight him to get dressed, I don't have to argue with him to get going. He is involved in some areas, such as sunday school, watching younger children, helping with the sound system, so it's not like this is going to kill him.

So many parents of the church have kids and they do not come to church. So many do, but the kids are drawing or playing on their ipods (why are those in church?)

I mentioned that my son comes to church and a council member replied with "but he doesn't sit IN church". Okay, what the hell is up with that? He is sitting out in the fellowship area, right outside the sanctuary, because I am out doing my duties. He doesn't want to sit alone in church, as neither did I when I was younger. We wanted to sit out by me. He listened to the service, was not on his phone and was not playing with his ipod. He was in the walls of our church and could hear the sermon. We have other members who don't sit IN church. Why is he different? At least he is there, on his own free will... no, I did not have to hog tie him and strap him to the roof of my car to get him there.

I just had to vent. My son does a lot with church and loves to be a part of it, and loves our pastor, so as long as he is willing to be there, I am happy.

Thank you for listening. The statement that was made just kinda hit me wrong and has been on my mind. Needed to vent. Thank you for listening.

God is watching

My mom travelled this past weekend or normally rides with two other ladies. This time she drove and took two others with her.

Last night we received an email that the two she normally rides with were in an accident on the way home from the trip. Everyone is bruised and sore but ok.

I guess God was looking out this weekend.

41 Year old Mom who just faced death

My day went well on Wednesday, I worked, I ate dinner, and I started my homework. Suddenly my eyes started itching and I started sneezing. My throat started to get tight.

I couldn't breathe and I had no idea what was happening. My mom took me to the ER and they plugged me with IV's and drugs, breathing treatments and steroids. Turns out to be an allergic reaction to my blood pressure medication I have been on for over two years.

They had a choice - either put me in a drug-induced coma to get tubes down my throat or take me under and insert a trac tube. I remember them rolling me into ICU Wednesday and didn't wake up until Saturday morning.

Talk about a scare - not knowing what happened, what caused it, if it will happen again, did they finds the right cause, when will be my time.

You never know when it will be your time, but God will know and will make sure he is there with you.