Ran out of milk yesterday (Christmas Eve).
Today We have been home.
Still out of milk.
Have been snoozing.
Woke up after 3 hours, only to be blindsided by "why aren't you buying milk?"
Aarrgghh. F* it! I grabbed my purse, no phone, to get milk.
Child had meltdown.
Can't put it into writing because it is just too unbelievable to explain!
Anyway, child had meltdown, I bought milk, everyone is leaving me alone, and I am having a beer!
Serious, is this what I have to deal with? Maybe I WILL go to work tomorrow!
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Ran out of milk yesterday (Christmas Eve).
Friday, December 21, 2012
I did keep him home today, between the cold, the snow storm, and the nagging in the back of my head, just to feel safe with myself.
We got hit with a heavy winter storm yesterday and we are digging out. It isn't as bad as it could be, but it's still s surprise when you have even a few inches of wet, water-logged snow, to shovel before it freezes into glaciers.
But Monday is Christmas Eve, Tuesday is Christmas, and between the weather and work, my shopping has not gotten done... and right now, I really don't care... I don't really exchange gifts... they are just for my mom and son... and close friends... I think they will understand... but then again...
Anyway, I just wanted to drop everyone a quick note and let you know I am still here and all is well. Been busy with life, but haven't we all?
Until later... have a great day...
Thursday, December 6, 2012
I work in a department is 97% guys. Not a problem.
There is one guy though, who is really giving me a "dilemma".
It might not be anything, but... every morning and evening, all the guys say Hi and Goodbye, I hang with them at break, everything is good. I am a fellow employee.
But then there is the one... he won't say Hi to me... even when I say Hi to him by name. He won't acknowledge me. It drives me crazy... I am wondering if it's his own "personality defect" or he is just that way. He will talk to everyone around me, but me... nope... not even a "hi".
WTF? I don't understand?
This has been in the back of my mind for over a week and I really need to let it go, but I'm curious what his issue is?
Anyone else have this situation? Any advice?
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Friday was long.... Did my trip to the gym... No black Friday shopping... And then worked 2nd job... For 7 hours... Man, my dogs were barking!!!!!! My son and my mom finished the lights outside (started on Thursday).
Got some sleep, didn't have to get up this morning... Woo hoo!
My mom put the window lights up today and my son put up the tree. I am so not into the holidays... Especially today already.
I went grocery shopping and went to CostCo. Got an awesome free cookbook. Awesome! Recipes look totally awesome... And easy. Cool.
I then spent money on the gifts for the families we are hosting at work, for the holidays.
When planning your way through the holidays, please think about those who are not as fortunate as we are. Even a small gesture is well received. For the food pantry, $30 can buy baby food, cereal, peanut butter, veggies, and even canned items for meals.
At church, we have a hat and mitten tree. Don't have to spend a fortune... Just grab one thing on your way through the store.
This Christmas holiday has brought me the ability to provide (or at least help) others. It makes the holidays a little more special and not so commercial.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Tomorrow I have off too, but I will be at my part-time 2nd job. Not bad. I don't do black Friday shopping.... Worked retail 4 years..., no way do i shop that day. People can be idiots all year long, but they take it up a notch or two on Black Friday!
The last two days, all my son rambles on about is video games. I try to listen, but the voice in my head screams "I DON'T CARE!"
Oh well, it's another day....
Happy Thanksgiving to all of my followers!
May you have a safe, happy, and enjoyable holiday!
Thursday, November 15, 2012
I am divorced
I believe in God
I am active in my church
I work full-time
I work part-time
I also have a home-based business
I listen to country
I listen to Compton Gangsta rap
I have tattoos
I go to the gym
I can lift serious weight
I threw shotput and discus
I can change a tire on a car
I can fix a muffler
I enjoy watching motorcycle chopper shows
I know who Orange Country Choppers are
I know who Jesse James is
I am not a fan of Brad Pitt
Or Justin Beiber
I watch Toddlers and Tieras... for the hell of it
I watch Bridezillas... because it is just wacked!
Honey Boo Boo is a brat!
I love Guy Fieri
Mark Hammon in hot!!!!!
I still wear a bikini
I love wearing short skirts
I love shoes
I love purses
I watch bullriding
Southern guys are HOT
Cowboys are HOT
Love guys in tight jeans
I have a black belt in the martial arts
I still have all my internal organs
I hate change
I am going back to college
I drive stick-shift cars
I can roller skate
For a start..........
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
In my house... it's red wine, greek yogurt, dill pickle potato chips, feta cheese, and habenaro jack cheese.
You can tell when someone has been in the chips because they look normal, but with the first bite... you will hear them screech!!!! Too funny.
I wish I could get to the next stage in my life, but I am struggling. I want to find happiness and find that place that makes me smile.
Sometimes I wonder who I am or where I am going. Do I even know? Is there a clear road?
Or am I on my own to wander and make the decision as I go?
**DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOU ARE GOING? REALLY?**
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
If you are gonna eat hard candy... I do not want to hear it! Keep your mouth shut!
If you are gonna hum... do it quietly because the tone drives me crazy.
If you are gonna do anything that annoys you... don't... it annoys me just as much!
Be Enough Me: Secretly Loving the Scars
I have scars... some are hidden, some are obvious... some are just barely there... and some are cut so deep they are constant reminders.
I'm sure we all have them. Some of us hide them better than others. Some of us can't get past the pain. Some of us even have learned to put them in the past.
Every day of my life... I look in the mirror and see the scars that have been left behind.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Friday, October 19, 2012
When I try to talk to him about eating habits, he gets really frustrated and confrontational, almost like I am attacking him. I am trying to talk to him from a mom's point of view and the view of someone who has battled food.
He gets defensive and doesn't want to hear it, but he does.
I watch him, he is self-conscious, but also is just his quiet self. I don't want him to suffer like I did and I am completely at a loss on how to talk to him. I want him to be healthy and happy. I don't want him to go through what I have suffered with.
How do I confront him and talk to him without him getting so upset with me? I want him to understand that I am trying to help him.
Any suggestions for a mom in a corner... mentally...
Thursday, October 18, 2012
at 5:30am, in the kitchen, with all the lights on, said daughter is making a sandwich for lunch... and singing the Oscar Meyer Bologna theme song...
I guess she is just lucky I couldn't remember the words to the Oscar Meyer Weiner song......
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Every year, the holidays take me down. I don't seem to enjoy them. They seem to depress me. I can't find happiness. Holidays make me sad. I feel bad for my son because I get lost during these days. I get sad and grow distant. I don't look forward to them because my mood has shattered this way at least the past 5 years or so. Not sure what triggered it, but it happens! Last year we went out for my birthday and did special things, but it wasn't a big deal. I don't want people to fuss over me. It's not me.
Does anyone else suffer this way? Does anyone else feel like this?
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
But as I think about it, it is my body's way of putting it's foot down.
I have been taking classes for almost 11 straight months, 5 weeks each, back to back. I have also had my son gone a week, my mom with a stroke, my own self changing jobs, my mom having surgery, and more.
I think God is telling me to stop a moment....
Monday, September 24, 2012
I finally had to suck it up and tell my teacher that I cannot honestly apply myself to the class I am currently taking. I have been so out of it and now the anxiety I feel by being behind is killing me.
I understand that I will need to pay to retake this class, but the anxiety will push me further down the road of sickness if I don't face the reality. Honest, I didn't want to do it, but I had to make that decision.
I hate having to make these decisions, but this one was for my own sanity.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
1. He follows me into the basement, to talk.
2. He cannot use a glass more than once, so every glass is in the dirty dishes.
3. He tells me the same things over and over.
4. If he ends a statement with "ok?" I have to say "ok" because "yes" is not the correct response.
5. He will not leave the house without washing his hair.
And I'm sure there are more.......
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012
He follows me around the house, he chatters (almost nonstop at times), he talks to himself, he narrates, to me, everything he does, etc.
He is very sweet, caring, and kind~hearted, but there are moments when I just want a personal bubble with a one mile radius!
I love him... Just asking for a silent personal bubble of even an hour!
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Sunday, August 5, 2012
There actually comes a point in the "discussion" when I have to walk away.
Does anyone else suffer from bouts of bullheaded confrontations?
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
I guess, in a nutshell... I just don't fit in... and from my gut feelings... I probably never will!
Unless I open that door and let them read that chapter, I guess I will never know for sure...
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Leap tall buildings? I can try...
Fly at the speed of light? Only if my child is in trouble...
Super strength? When I need to defend...
10. Thanks to my family, who makes me realize that I am not a created nut-case... it is truly inherited!
Friday, July 13, 2012
- My day always starts by _feeding the cats and the fish_
- I prefer _cold pizza_ to _normal breakfast_
- I never thought I’d _get married_ until I _actually did_
- I wish I could _just get away from the world_ for _even one day_.
Friday, July 6, 2012
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Now, on to the rules and requirements...
1. Thank and link back to the awarding blog.
2. Answer seven questions.
3. Provide 10 random factoids about yourself.
4. Hand the award on to 7 deserving others.
#1. What is your favorite song? "Blown Away" by Carrie Underwood
#2. What's your favorite desert? If I could have anything... Tiramisu
#3. What do you do when you are upset? I shut down and don't talk to anyone, but not before I let out a growl.
#4. Which is your favorite pet? I love my kitty cats... but dogs are awesome too (but they have to be BIG dogs... not little yippers!)
#5. Which do you prefer, White or Whole Wheat? Whole wheat mostly, but white for smooshed down cheese sandwiches.
#6. What is your your biggest fear? Failure... and speaking in public...
#7. What is your attitude mostly? I try to be positive and pleasant... but there are days.
Ten Random Factoids... all about ME:
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Monday, June 4, 2012
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
# 1 - You must post these rules.
# 2 - You must post 11 things about yourself.
# 3 - You must answer the questions from the tagger AND post 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
# 4 - You must choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post. Let them know they've been tagged! Don't tag back the blog that tagged you.
2. I love my son to death - he is my best friend.
3. I will forgive... but forgetting is a little more difficult for me.
4. I put others first.
5. I trust everyone, until I am proven different.
6. I can be a pack rat.
7. I love to drink wine.
8. I would love to go to an island on vacation.
9. I do occasionally play the lottery.
10. I don't spend a lot of money on myself.
11. I want to find happiness in my life.
2. Do you speak any languages other than English? I took 2 years of spanish... I can ask for a beer and where is the bathroom. (Those are the important ones right?)
3. What was your favorite job? I love working at the wine bar.
4. Favorite pastime? just chilling with the kitty cats.
5. Black and white or color? Photos... black & white rocks.
6. Small businesses or big box? small businesses are the way.
7. Do you recycle? yes... anything that isn't nailed down!
8. Home phone/cell phone/no phone? home phone for mom... cell phone for me...
9. Were you ever an AOL user? yes, way back when... in the beginning... in dial-up... prior to "you've got mail"
10. Favorite website? Besides your blog of course! The Tastefully Simple Website... yummy!!!
11. Favorite beverage? I like wine, can do beer, but non-alcoholic - give me Diet Coke.
1. Stasha @ Northwest Mommy
2. Kristin @ Mondays with Mac
3. Kim @ This Belle Rocks
4. Lady Goo Goo Gaga
5. Robbie @ Fractured Family Tales
6. Cyn @ The Chunky Goddess
7. The Bipolar Diva
8. Marti @ Marti's Musings
9. Jenny @ Sippy Cup Chronicles
10. RoryBore @ Time Out For Mom
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Friday, May 25, 2012
So, mix my morning personality, with my obsessive-compulsive tendencies, along with my willingness to over-extend myself... and what do you get... ME!