Monday morning

I am laying here, listening to the fan... And my son snoring. I start work an hour later today so this schedule has me all messed up, not to mention my poor kitty cats. 

Tomorrow my son starts summer school and we will all be up early... At least for the next four weeks...

I am still tossing around ideas for writing my story. I have stuff written, I have thoughts in my head. I just need to put it together. 

Well, my kitty is here to cuddle for a half hour so... Until later my friends.

Writing my story

I want to write my story. There is do much that people don't know... And I believed I can share myself to let those who have gone through the same, that they are not alone.

List my mind

I know I do too much and spread myself too thin... But today made me see that clearly. 

Everything written said my son started work at 4.... I took him to work at 2.... 

I guess I need to stop stretching myself too thin.

OCD and getting turned around

My son has ADHD, anxiety, and slight obsessive disorder. He has patterns and routines.

Tonight, him and a friend went for a walk. It got dark and they got turned around, ending up in a area they had not planned on.

They got back on track and he called me to tell me they were on their way back. I could hear the anxiety in his voice and breathing.

His friend doesn't know about this.

When he got home, he was short and snippy. Then he started to tear up. Yep, I'm a mom, I hit the nail on the head when I asked him if the stress was from "getting lost". Yep, sure enough... And then the flood gates opened and he sobbed.

This is sometime I have learned to recognize and defuse but it's tough when his mood is sharp.

He is in a hot bath and relaxing. Time for bed... Its been a long day...

Early morning church, breakfast, movie, family dinner, went for a walk, went to his friend's, went for another walk, got turned around, and finally got home...

Oh yeah, long day...

Happy Easter everyone!

News on TV

I wake up in the morning to find my mom watchimg the news.

She then proceeds to tell me about the accidents, deaths, storms, and shootings.... At 5am.

Once again, I remind her (as politely as possible) that there is a reason I do not watch the news... And it is by choice that I don't watch it.

If you want to tell me that they have found a cure for cancer, or stopped all child abuse, or saved all the stray animals.... Fine, but the negative I can do without. 

My mom is 82 and spends time flipping between local and world news. It is truly no wonder why old people get so cranky and ornery.... Especially when they watch the news!!!!

Turn on the Brady Bunch, Dick van Dyke, or even Phineas and Ferb.... And laugh & smile! It won't kill you!!!!!

Tears

If my son sheds tears when our fish dies.... What is he going to do when someone breaks his heart? Mom can buy new fish.... But the broken heart... That's a bigger task....

Ugh!

My world has been in a spin...

I started my MBA and finally got over my bronchitis, sinus infection, and war infection.

I made it through my first class with a B so I was thrilled.

My son is struggling with school, especially since he is a junior and they are looking at graduation.

I couldn't handle the roller coaster. I took 2 weeks off school so I can help him, support him, and get him through this. 

I return to class next week. I have helped get him on track. And I hope we are good. He just needed to understand that I am always here to support him... He just has to ask... But he asks for help as much as I do (hmpf!!!)... So I know the signs!

Hopefully next week we will be riding a little smoother!!!!

Struggle

Have you ever faced a time in your life, or with your child, that you just want to throw in the towel? I don't know what to do some days, how to respond, or how to react. I feel like I'm at a loss. 

Illnesses

We spent thanksgiving and Christmas with my son being sick with a virus and pink eye. Once he started getting better, I went down with a sinus infection and ear infection. Today I am still down (5wks later). I haven't had an ear infection since I was 10 or so... And trust me, I DO NOT miss them!!!!!! Might as well get this out of my system so I can get on with 2014!!!!!

Sunday

Today has been a bad day

My mood is down

I am bummed

No ability to be patient

Not impressed with anything

And really don't care today....

Today is a bad day....