My son's Christmas wish

My sons wish for Christmas is for me to be home with him more, instead of working so much. As a mom, I guess I need to get my priorities in order. I don't want to work so much but I feel I must, to pay the bills and so my son has stuff and doesn't have to go without. I am torn and depressed. Now I am even more confused about the holidays. I have gotten to be such a scrooge anyway but this year I am crabby and confused.