Battle Scars

Today was the day to attempt ninja kitty's claws. I call him NK because he does a vertical jump and reaches 6-ft up on our door frame. Anyway. Claw clipping day is NOT fun, but might be entertaining to others. I have to cover him with a blanket, lay over him and reach for one paw at a time. Today wasn't so smooth - one gouge on my wrist, one on my ankle, and one UNHAPPY furball! But I did get two front paws done. Only two more cats to go!

Feeling Guilty

I am suddenly feeling guilty. I am wondering if all this is truly my fault. My child is a good kid, kinda quiet, big heart, kind, but he has not been himself.

I have enrolled my child and I in a counseling session. I know that I have a lot of skeletons in my closet and a lot of demons who haunt my mind, but I know the stories behind them.

I am wondering if my skeletons are what is causing my son to be the way he is? Bad enough that he inherits my anxiety traits... now the attitude thing. Am I a bad parent? Do I criticize too much? Am I the problem?

It's amazing what goes through your mind when you face reality eye-to-eye. You truly wonder if it's all your fault?

Obsessive... or just Weird?

I have a few quirks...(but doesn't everyone?)

1 - I eat curled/folded potato chips first (even if I have to dump the entire bag in a dish).

2 - My socks have to have 1 right and 1 left.

3 - Turn the lights off when you walk out.

4 - Cheese has to be on TOP of the burger.

5 - The round part of a bun in the top.

6 - The icons on my desktops are arranged a certain way.

7 - Paper torn out of notebooks have to have the ragged edges torn (or ripped) off.

8 - All monetary bills must face the same direction.

My Wine List

(No particular order... trust me...)


Red Rock Merlot


Graton Cellars Chardonnay


St Jacob Riesling


Annie Amie Pinot Noir


Bubby Bitch

It's 90 outrside... and 78 in our house!!!

Okay, I am so glad summer is coming, but there is a reason that we live in a house with central air. I am at work all day, which can range anywhere from having the heat on in the morning to having my fan on in the afternoon. I like warm weather, but I hate being hot. If I had to choose, I would prefer to be too cold, so I can dress in 20 layers if I need to. When I am too warm, I am miserable... and you can only strip off so many layers before you find yourself in an awkward predicament! Oh, beside being too warm... and miserable.... I will be sure that those around me will be miserable too! I have always been taught to share the wealth!! hehe!

Anyway, back to the topic at hand... my mom and the house. I understand that she is old... and "always cold" but there has to be a common ground.

Today we hit at least 90 outside. I came home tonight after job #2 and my car said it was 68 outside. 68 sounds comfy to me... especially after you walk into our house... and the thermometer reads 77. Yeah... not! The air is on, yes, but only to cool to 77. What are we thinking?????? Mom is in bed, under a comforter and the windows are closed. I am sitting here half-naked, trying to adapt to life in a sauna. We are not in "dry heat" country - we are in the mid-west for crying out loud! Heat is hot and cold is cold. Deal with in. If you're cold, put more clothes on. Just don't make me sweat with the oldies in a house like a sauna!

What next??? Is anyone listening?

Being a single mom, it seems like I am running constantly and answering to everyone except myself.

I am trying to get my home-based business off the ground, along with the thought of blogging. I feel like I am in a spin and not sure where or when I am going to stop.

Does anyone have any ideas?

My Brain Hurts!!!!!

Have you ever been in one of those situations where there is so much that needs to be done, but there are not enough hours?  Last night, I sat in front of the computer screen, working on one task, trying to make headway, but felt even more stressed than I did earlier.  As my hands are typing and my eyes are reading, my brain is trying a whole multitasking thing!  My hands and eyes are working on one project and my brain is reminding me of the other 4 things I am supposed to be doing.  None of the tasks are minor or unnecessary… but what I was working on really couldn’t be put on the top of the priority list.  There were other things more important, but I guess I just didn’t want to think that hard. 

You Know It's Going to be One of Those Days

I should have known, by the way I was feeling this morning, that this was going to be a long day!

In my routine, I have patterns and set processes... must have something to do with my OCD. When people or things modify those, I tend to get a little bit edgy.  And then that leads to sarcasm. And then I am just get cranky and that pretty much takes care of my mood for the day.

This morning I had that type of day, where people were in my space and messing with my "me" time. I then got frustrated and started getting stressed... and then my tone took on sarcasm.

Anyone who crossed my path got run over.

Most days, I am level-headed and willing to just let things go, but in this mood, hell no. When I am like this, there should be a warning sign on my cubbie (and it's not even due to PMS!).

Asking About A New Dad

I have been divorced for almost 8 years and my son has been without his dad for at least 6 of them.  It seems like lately, he asks about his dad. I am not going to lie to him because that is not fair.  But then he throws me for a curve when he asks if I am going to date someone so that he might have a new dad someday. Okay, so now what?  I have had a bad run with guys and really don't have time to go looking. I am so busy with all I do that I don't want to take away more time from my son...